I'm having a really hard time with things lately. I've suffered from depression my entire life and some moments are worse than others. I'm 36, married. My husband has been out of work for 3 years and all of the financial burdens fall on my shoulders. We have tax debt that I have to start making payments on, our car is falling apart and I cannot afford to get a new / better one and my credit is bad. We live check to check and everything has been a constant struggle. I have no joy in my life.. actually I don't think that I ever really have. There are moments were things are maybe a little more tolerable than usual. I feel overwhelmed and lost. I feel like this life is so pointless. It's just the same garbage every single day after day and I feel beaten down. I feel angry that I never asked to be born yet I am forced to live this life. I don't want to do this anymore. I don't have the energy or desire to anymore at this point.