Beautiful People *triggering and gross*

[Scum]

Some beautiful people in chat today.

Lovely, caring, supportive.

And I throw it back at them.

They are trying to be helpful and caring, and I just can't handle talking to people.

It's freaking me out.

Right now in shock from blood loss. Tired. Found tendon again. Cut in a place that will gape when I move because of previous wounds.

Upstairs, getting dressed, song came on and totally broke down. Couldn't stop crying, but continued getting dressed. Trying to carry on. Cried and cried and cried. Nothing makes this better. Nothing ever will. So much loss in such short time.

Once I had calmed down had to get redressed because in my state I had not done it properly, clothes all wrong and all sorts.

Can't cope with this. it's Easter holidays next week, how will I cut then?

 

[Sa Palomera]

:hug: :hug: you are wonderful person, S. You really are. Thank you. :hug:

 

[Marshmallow]

Ima call you S aswell, i don't think your username suits you at all! so im not gonna refer to you by it :smile: but i wanna take the time to thank you for yesterday (i think it was) that chat we had really helped me and i enjoyed talking to you and i hope to more often :smile: Your a very special and beautiful person!

 

[Scum]

Thanks Ester :hug:

Vikki, all I did was tell you the truth, but I'm glad it helped to hear (or read) the truth. :hug:

Take care of yourselves guys, and thanks for the replies

 

[Aquariamethystea]

Scum, I hope this didn't refer to the incident which occured earlier when I was trying to help the member I discussed about on chat. If anyone deserved to be cut, it is me, since I failed her and I seem to have failed you and others involved in the situation. Nothing got resolved at all. I'm sorry.

 

[Scum]

No no no no no no

this is a positive post about how great the people in chat have been today. Tried to help me so much, but I couldnt accept their help. and I felt bad for it.

And no, I didn't do anything because of her, as far as I can see she is of little relevance to me. But you did not let her down, nor do anything wrong. You tried as hard as you could, and that is all anyone can do. she has been on since, so clearly she is ok.

Infact, we do need a chat about that though.

If you do ever need a chat about anything, my pm box is always there

Please dont blame yourself for anything

 

[Terry]

You need a hug :hug: Get the cut seen to please.