Some beautiful people in chat today. Lovely, caring, supportive. And I throw it back at them. They are trying to be helpful and caring, and I just can't handle talking to people. It's freaking me out. Right now in shock from blood loss. Tired. Found tendon again. Cut in a place that will gape when I move because of previous wounds. Upstairs, getting dressed, song came on and totally broke down. Couldn't stop crying, but continued getting dressed. Trying to carry on. Cried and cried and cried. Nothing makes this better. Nothing ever will. So much loss in such short time. Once I had calmed down had to get redressed because in my state I had not done it properly, clothes all wrong and all sorts. Can't cope with this. it's Easter holidays next week, how will I cut then?