I’m a very very gender-confused man/woman. I have always felt wrong in my body. Always. It makes me sick to think that I have a… vagina down there. But at the same time, I don’t know if I could ever go through with getting a full gender change, as much as I’d like one. I’ve been experimenting, slowly but surely, and I think I’ve discovered that I am a gay man… a skinny man with a vagina, but nonetheless, a man. I don’t really understand what this means though. I feel kind of like I’m betraying the idea of gender change by fulfilling my gender-role, but still desiring to be different. I guess I’m… I dunno. If I were a woman, my desire to be a man would make me gay. But if I were a man, my desire for other men would also make me gay. I guess it’s a weird double negative. I don’t know why, but it feels like this is a good place to say this.