I'm very down today, that's more of an understatement...but no one would care either way. Of course people here have to care, it's their job. My friends hate me and i'm so alone right now. I feel like im too ugly to find someone that looks good and will ever date me. Because looks actually do matter. Also, ive given up on finding someone who is beautiful on the inside because everyone just betrays me and i know im not beautiful on the inside so i cant hold others to being the same. Im such an emotional and physical wreck no one even knows. I can't cry because there is no purpose. I feel like im s heavy and walking through a thick pool of jello with every move i make, but since im in this jello no one notices my struggles and if they do they just laugh and taunt me because im in the jello and look stupid in the jello and act stupid in the jello as well. get it? heh. well this might get one cheesy reply as all of my other threads have as well.