Just need to vent. For the last couple of months so much happened but I didn't deal with how it was affecting me. I was just pushing it aside afraid to really feel anything. Tonight it got too much. It's almost 7 am and I've been up for the whole night feeling alone, suicidal, unimportant.. It's hard to believe anyone still gives a shit. But maybe that's a good thing. I'm so tired of feeling this way. I didn't sleep well in months. It's making me physically ill and I'm so sick of not being able to reach out to anyone. Not a single person knows how I am. I don't even feel ok posting stuff here anymore. There is so much I want to say, that I need to talk about but I learned its better not to... Sorry this is such a stupid, pointless thread.