I'm worrying about going to the doctor's on Saturday. They prolly already know I'm a drug addict (over the counter codeine pills) how pathetic. I've been bhaving MASSIVE panic attacks, every time I try to sleep I have one, feels like my heart is about to explode. I have this dream often about a woman I used to know/hate. She was a support worker at the supported living place (some of you know that long story). The dream is set in a post apocalyptic world where there's only a few humans left. One of which is me, one of which is her. We're stood in a line waiting for something when another guy who worked there shows up & shoves me into her. She turns around and says 'take your shot', then I wake up having a panic attack. I can go for days without sleep, this is my 4th this week. I won't stop this probably until my dr's appointment is over. I have no idea what I'm so afraid of, probably what the heck they're going to say about me being addicted to codeine. I have some other physical health issues that I started using it for, which are the reason I'm going too. If these are not resolved, then I won't be able to stop the pills. I'm thinking, should I get drunk, but that doesn't stop the panic anymore. What the hell will they do, I hate doctors.