It's been hours now I've been sitting here in front of my comp reading the posts here at SF while crying my eyes out. I don't know what to do anymore, the pain is too much for me to handle. I don't even know why I'm posting this, just wanted to be heard, I feel so invisible here sometimes. I've tried everything I can, I've been trying to reach out as far as I can, now, people can't blame me for not trying to get help anymore if I did something. They would be happy. Sorry for the pointless thread.