I hate this, the feeling of happiness and then you just wait for it to end, sure it won't last. And it didn't. I've been doing so well, last time I tried to commit suicide was in september last year. And lately it's been building up again, and it makes me so frustrated..I've felt so alive and I don't ever want to forget happiness but things in my life are pushng me over the edge again and I just sat down and wanted to end it all...again. I hate this. I don't want to be like this. I want to be able to be happy.