First of all, sorry but this is going to be a long one...
About three weeks ago, I very nearly tried to kill myself. I've considered it before, but I never actually planned it out before that day. I knew that my parents were going to be out late and that any combination of my father's medication (he is on several for a severe heart condition) would kill me.
In the summer, I had admitted to my very best friend that I had thought about committing suicide before and she made me promise that I would never kill myself. I promised and then when I almost tried to kill myself a few weeks ago, the promise I made to her was the only thing that stopped me because she texted me as I was about to do it, apologizing for our little fight (the first time we had ever fought about anything, and honestly one of the main reasons I was about to do it) and the text message made me remember that promise.
I didn't tell her about almost killing myself until about two weeks ago, and when I did, she was understandably angry with me. But we talked things out and she understands why I wanted to do it, although she still isn't happy about it.
But, earlier this week, I was seriously considering suicide again. I don't know if I should tell her or not though because she was in an accident and so now she's at home resting and can barely move (I've been visiting her every day). I know I should tell her, but I just don't know if it's the right time to and I know that she will be completely pissed at me. And I don't know what else to do to stop these feelings. Now, I'm happy I didn't go through with it, but when I'm trying to, it doesn't feel like that. I can't talk to my parents about this for certain reasons and I don't know what to do. Help?
About three weeks ago, I very nearly tried to kill myself. I've considered it before, but I never actually planned it out before that day. I knew that my parents were going to be out late and that any combination of my father's medication (he is on several for a severe heart condition) would kill me.
In the summer, I had admitted to my very best friend that I had thought about committing suicide before and she made me promise that I would never kill myself. I promised and then when I almost tried to kill myself a few weeks ago, the promise I made to her was the only thing that stopped me because she texted me as I was about to do it, apologizing for our little fight (the first time we had ever fought about anything, and honestly one of the main reasons I was about to do it) and the text message made me remember that promise.
I didn't tell her about almost killing myself until about two weeks ago, and when I did, she was understandably angry with me. But we talked things out and she understands why I wanted to do it, although she still isn't happy about it.
But, earlier this week, I was seriously considering suicide again. I don't know if I should tell her or not though because she was in an accident and so now she's at home resting and can barely move (I've been visiting her every day). I know I should tell her, but I just don't know if it's the right time to and I know that she will be completely pissed at me. And I don't know what else to do to stop these feelings. Now, I'm happy I didn't go through with it, but when I'm trying to, it doesn't feel like that. I can't talk to my parents about this for certain reasons and I don't know what to do. Help?
