My mother told me to "Go to your uncles on Friday and never bother coming back, if your things aren't gone by then, I'm selling them" She doesn't care what happens now, she's made it clear she no longer gives a shit. If I can't go to my uncles, or if they find some type of reason that I am not allowed to stay (as I have to legally move to my uncles, as I'm 15 years old) I have to go into foster care. My uncle lives in a different town and it's a lot of traveling every day for school. I'm depressed and feeling like shit because my mother seems to hate me and my education is going to be up the wall, and I'm in the middle of my exams. For years she's called me a slut, ****,(slut and **** only used once) bastard, bitch, selfish, ungrateful, disgusting, immature, twat, etc. She's said because I'm scarred (self harm) that no man will ever want to date me, that I look like a "freak" to people. That I'm the most selfish person she had ever met, and that she never wants anything to do with me again. I'm covered in cuts and some needs stitches, I've got pills and hell, I just want to take them. My father is dead, my mother treats me like shit and doesn't care, my sister is stuck in the middle and lives across the country. I've been like this for so long I look in the mirror every day and see the cuts and scars, I look at myself and think "Worthless, useless, stupid, ugly, freak, disgusting, weak, pathetic, needy, spoilt, selfish, self centered, slut" My education is messy right now, I go to a special needs school and as I said, I literally just finished 1 exam and am doing another. I hate living like this, I just hate living in general, I just want to be with my father. One of the few people that never treated me like I ruined their fucking life.