Been on everything/scared/med advice please

#1
This post may end up long and boring but here goes... I have been off medications for over a year now. The last numerous ones caused awful reactions. One made me pass out every time Id stand up to quick or would get to hot. One made my skin turn bright red and blister of. Another made my muscles stiff and I actually dragged my right leg around before I said anything (because otherwise I loved the medication).. One made me a zombie..In the past I have gained weight, stopped eating, been awake for three days at a time, threw up every time I tried to eat, ate to the point I could explode, sleep constantly for like 20 hours a day, had face movements I couldnt controll, so many nightmares I wished to die in my sleep, and more painful/burning rashes then I care to count. So when my temp insurance was dropped I was thrilled to not be forced on medications anymore. The temp insurance was in place while I was being forced to take medications...

Well things havent improved much..I dont sleep well..I dont have good eating habits..Im still over weight..Im still suffering major/frequent depression.. I have headaches..I cant concentrate (often)..Im short tempered..I have trouble dealing..And so forth..

A few weeks back my mom asked me to seek treatment. I dont qualify for free services anywhere and cant afford to make the trips to the free clinics across my state (60 plus miles away per clinic). She said to visit the local medical clinic.. She offered to pay for the visits if I would sign up for sliding fee/reduced fee. She offered to pay for blood work. She offered to pay for my gas to the appointments. She offered to pay for medications..

Heres the problem..Im afraid of the medications..Im afraid of burning rashes, bleeding skin, legs that dont work, stumock aches that dont go away, headaches that never end, sleeping constantly/not at all, passing out, and weight gain..

The last doctor I seen said I honestly have been on every freaking medication.. Expect the ones requiring blood work and maybe a few others but I had allergic reactions to similar meds..My options were running thin...

Advice please? Should I suffer the side effects and be mierable..Is mental stability a trade off for physical comfort? What should I do?
 

total eclipse

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#2
Hey your mom sounds like she truly wants you well and functioning and is giving yu support you need. There are brand new meds out there less side effects ask doc abt them. If not try ect treatment it has know to work for some go and just talk to new doctor okay get a different point a different outlook they may help. Take what support given to you and get well it is worth it
 
#3
I have been on medications since the age of 13. Things that work either have had horrible side effects or stopped working after long term treatment. I took Geodon for a good while and loved it, all the sudden it stopped working... I would feel guilty if I took my mom up on her offer. She struggles with so much crap right now. I know shes struggling to pay her own families bills because she told me so. Im fighting with all that information (the fear of medications, past history of meds, and knowing that my mom cant really spare the money for my treatment)..Its a hard choice to make. Expecially when (if Im totally honest about it) I dont want to try medications again.. Its just Im urged to by a lot of people..My grandma understands my resistance but no one else seems to..
 

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