I'm so exhausted. Tired of struggling. Yesterday, wasn't a good day. I ended up self harming. Wanted to do more but tried my best to pull through the day. Just woke up this morning feeling sad. Just wishing for better days but not seeing it. My thoughts hasn't been well still. I was close to calling a hotline yesterday but didn't want the police showing up. I just feel so hopeless. I don't know what else to do.