What is the point of continuing if your life is virtually pathetic and unimportant? Why should I have to get up everyday, deal with unfathomable amounts of stress, suffer in silence, succumb to my anxiety, and be an ultimate failure? So the people around me won't be hurt if I leave them? Great, so the people who make my life difficult and don't give a shit if they hurt me are the reason I should stick around? Brilliant. Why put myself through this anymore? What IS the point if it's just going to be painful and lonely and meaningless? I honestly don't see a silver lining, a happy ending, or even a tolerable ending. I'm in so much pain and I have so much anger it's just exhausting and pointless. I have a plan, I have a motive, what more is there?