Basically I am starting to cut all ties I have with the world in prepration to my death, I have a plan and a method and allthough I am not going to execute it soon, it should work. I told my therpist I want to end therpay and stop all medication and I decided I am going to tell her that our next appoiment will be our last. I am going to stop talking to my family because basically they never desevered me anyway. I am going to see a lawyer or a mortician (I am not sure who I see to be honest) about post death body plans, no funeral, no memeroial services, body creamaited, and ashes scattered at sea by a stranger, no family present, I figrued no one was there for me in life why should they have the right to be their for me and pretend to mourn for me in death. As for school peers, well they just aren't nice people so I am not going to be nice to them, so I doubt they will care within a few weeks. So the plan is begining, and right now I am very calm about it, not sure what that means, but thats how I feel.