Im so much like my mother....i spend every moment I have, every ounce of my heart to take care and comfort other people and yet im also the farthest from her...because I cant hold everything in forever....im beginning to break....if i dont find someone to talk to soon...this may be the beginning of the end. I cant live 2 lives and still act "normal" im getting angrier and the 'attacks' are happening more often...now i have no control over them....even at work and the barn...i think about 'I hope i die and never see tomorrow' everynite before i go to sleep...this is the end....