Being an unsuccessful human its not all dependent on your choices or will. or upbring. Those things are a large part of it but its also you genes and mind. Lots of things that you have no control over. You only get one chance at life , if you fail you know your life is not going to be as good as it could have been. I know I have failed, in many different ways. I wasted my chance and it seems their is no point in trying any more. Its futile. Thats why I may as well end my life now. I know very few will miss me and many will be glad im dead. My abusive drug dealer step father is getting out of jail soon. For the third or fourth time. I know when he gets back many new problems will arise. I cannot deal with them, I can barely handle the problems I have now. My idiotic mother refuses to end all relations with this man. I just cannot understand why.