Being a loser

[Darken]

Being an unsuccessful human its not all dependent on your choices or will. or upbring. Those things are a large part of it but its also you genes and mind. Lots of things that you have no control over. You only get one chance at life , if you fail you know your life is not going to be as good as it could have been. I know I have failed, in many different ways. I wasted my chance and it seems their is no point in trying any more. Its futile. Thats why I may as well end my life now. I know very few will miss me and many will be glad im dead.

My abusive drug dealer step father is getting out of jail soon. For the third or fourth time. I know when he gets back many new problems will arise. I cannot deal with them, I can barely handle the problems I have now. My idiotic mother refuses to end all relations with this man. I just cannot understand why.

 

[Esmeralda]

You're so young; try to find something to hold on to. You can't change your Mom or your stepdad, but you can control what YOU do...I really hope you can find something worth fighting for, at least enough to take care of yourself and not give up on life. I can't claim to know what is going on with you, but I do know that you are capable of more than you think.

 

[Darken]

much thanks peanut. I feel bad right now. my life means absolutely nothing. when I die not a single person will care. I have no peace, not even in death.

 

[Sailor]

Jesus gave me peace. It has not been moved. As long as I believe, my bowels has been filled with living waters, my prayers answered, and love have I recieved, and love was I able to give. For Christ saith, "freely have you recieved, freely give."

"He's the only way," I sing, "Christ is the only way." I sing this as I walk day to day from school. The only way to true joy and happiness. He had said that He is the good sheperd, he leads the sheep, and protects them from the wolves. No one leads the sheep away because his sheep only hears the good sheperd.

Matthew 7:7 "Ask, and it shall be given you; seek and ye shall find; knock, and it shall be opened unto you. "
Matthew 7:8 "For everyone that asketh receiveth; and he that seeketh findeth; and to him that knocketh it shall be opened."

I DON'T know why were on this EARTH. All I know is, our relationship with others are the most important. If you're wondering and can't find answers, ASK! You have the RIGHT!

Open your heart and get rid of your hate; so love can enter in and dwell.

Matthew 7:11 "If ye then, being evil, know how to give good gifts unto your children, how much more shall your Father which is in heaven give good gifts to them that ask him?"

 

[yada]

Zohmygob, I come from a different culture where my childhood was surpressed by my parents so that I would not do or learn anything with the expectation that I would just go into my dad's business. I was raised like a piece of veal. But I broke away, disassociated myself from my parents, came to the U.S., and made something of myself. Master's degree, 200k/yr job a few years ago, and a bunch of other stuff. I was successful.

But other recent setbacks has taken my life away, some bad luck and some bad decisions. This happens. I have been fighting it, but not sure I have the fight in me anymore. I consider myself a loser now, especially if I give up. But if I can find the emotional support to keep going again, I know I can be successful again.

My point is that peanut is right ... it is in *your* power to do something about it. Sure there will be obstacles, but it can still be done. I'm 40 now, and I've learned from experience that the younger you are, the easier it is to do something about it.

 

[Adeline]

Hi Zohmygob,

You're wrong. You haven't wasted your life. Its never too late. You are still young and there is always time. You say that very few people will miss you....then doesn't that mean there are people out there who care and love you? You do have control. You do have power. I hope that you don't choose to end your life and I hope that you will be okay.

Earla

 

[Darken]

thanks much. Im trying but I cant handle this world. Im so disturbed right now.

 

[Adeline]

I know that you are not religious but I agree with Sailor. Turning to Jesus does help. He loves us very much and if we focus on Him and tell him all our needs, He does listen. It is very hard to have faith these days but it does work.

 

[Esmeralda]

Hey Z. I can't tell you that one particular holy book or religion will be the answer to all your questions. But what I CAN tell you is that we all have within us the ability and desire to find God in our own way. Sometimes we find a path that "fits", or we develop a relationship with God that transcends a particular religion or credo. I believe that there are many paths to the same God, and that if we search long enough, we will find Him or He will find us. I know this may not seem very comforting, but I believe it, so did Pope John Paul, from what I have read about him. People sometimes say I'm a "cherry picker", just choosing what I really believe or want to believe and discarding the rest. But I honestly believe that dogma is merely a structure by which we can find our way to God, not a necessity. Even my grandmother, a life-long devout Catholic (she hasn't missed a Mass in 75 years) does not believe in an eternal Hell. I can't tell you where to look, only that you SHOULD look, and that I believe you can find that spiritual solace you are searching for.

 

[Darken]

I dont understand that though. because it doesnt matter how hard I try to find some way to make god exist it never happens. If god does exist he would be very different from human, and it seems like if god does exist hes not around humans. you may say I rejected gods love, but its like the opposite.

 

[pit]

It doesn't bother me if the world thinks I'm a failure or I'm a loser. If they do, that's their problem.

Look at the so called role models of success society constantly trumpets. Donald Trump. Oprah Winfrey. A bunch of overpaid spoiled jocks. The latest anorexic model or actress who fucked up her car. The current winner of American Idol. Can anyone relate to these people? And more importantly, why should we look up to these assholes?

The only winner in my life is a good friend or a good dog.

A fine piece of steak wouldn't hurt, either.

 

[LostMyMind]

I'm probably the biggest loser alive. :blink:

 

[Esmeralda]

Have you tried meditation? Transcendental meditation might be something that could help you a great deal. I've heard prayer described as talking to God, whereas meditation is listening to God. Just a thought.

But back on topic, I don't think you are a loser for what that's worth.