My son and daughter-in- law invited me to their family Christmas - with her mom and adult daughter. They are all very nice but I don't feel entirely accepted and am on my toes. This year Ben and Holly made a big deal about me spending the day, going to a film with everyone at night, and leaving on the 26th. They said it was important to them. I can't imagine why. OK I managed to initiate and have some conversations with people because I know how but there was zero reciprocity. I juts sat alone alone wondering what I was doing to be - at least a bit - shunned. I wished I knew how to knit so I could sit in a corner and do knitting. Not that they aren't friendly when I do the work, they aren't interested. OK, I am old, retired etc but I used to have a career, be a conversationalist, an interesting person, and now I am nothing but I pain the neck you have to invite. I and it felt so strange, so sad. I used to talk to my son about books ,films, the usual but there no one talks about anything. I didn't even realize that my son and his wife were working today - I thought I'd been asked through at least breakfast. I had to packed and ready to go by about 8:30. I don't want to alienate them any more - I have no one. I can't say how I feel. It is so hard.
