It's a fear which I think is not far from realising. I find it so hard to form relationships with people since I was young, and it was made worsen after the depression got out of hand. The love of my life is very determined to leave me now and I am totally shattered. For the past few times when they happened, I had successfully convinced to do otherwise but this time... My heart feels like it has been punched and torn a million times. I don't think anyone else on the face of this planet can put up with me. I don't have close friends, and person whom I love most and has spent the past seven years with wants to leave me so badly because I have severe emotional problems. Being alone for the rest of my life. I wish I can take my own life, but let me wait until my folks are gone. I shall just have to put up with life for another... 10 years maybe.