I'm wondering, are there any other siblingless people out there on this site? If so, how do you feel about it? Oh, and if there's a more appropriate place to post this, feel free to move my thread. I'm a girl who's nearly 21, my dad is 55 and my mom is 51. I'm an only child mainly because of the problems my mom had when she gave birth to me, they didn't think she could go through the same thing a second time without risking her life in the process. My mom's parents are gone and she has one brother that she hasn't spoken to for years, even I have never met him. My grandmother (my dad's mother) died in 2007, she was the only relative outside my immediate family that I truly loved. My dad has five siblings, but even the woman I considered my favourite aunt along with my other aunt said that I should have been put up for adoption (even though that was a couple of years ago, it still haunts me now), so I essentially have no family except for my mom and dad. ~~~ The bottom line is, I'm scared that in however many years I have with my parents, I'm going to end up completely alone. I don't have any friends because I have confidence and mild anxiety problems in social situations (I would try and get over it if I could... but I have no idea where to start, I don't go anywhere because I know no-one.) I can clearly see myself ending it all in roughly 20 years time because of this, I honestly doubt I could cope. I actually KNOW I couldn't cope if things go the way I see them. I'm so frightened at the thought I cried myself to sleep last night over it, even tonight it hit me again. I don't know where this is coming from, but all of a sudden this is in the forefront of my mind and I can't shift it. This is probably going to sound ridiculous, but I feel the only hope I'll have is by having kids in about 5 years time just so I could have some sort of family and a reason to keep my life going. And that's not forgetting that I would have to settle down with someone first. I hate the idea that that could be the only thing that's going to save me. What options do I have?