Ive been bullied ever since I was in primary school (i live in england) thats where a lot of my self hate has come from and its also the reason i started to SH because I wanted control and I didnt want anyone to be able to hurt me more than I could, Which i know sounds sick but thats what happened. Ive had all sorts of things happen to me, one time someone nearly strangled me with my own tie and the teacher was right there and did nothing. Even my own so called 'friends' were even in on it when I went to secondary school. Sometimes it got sexual which I havnt told anyone about as it makes me feel very vunerable. It has made me very untrusting of people but particularly people my own age which is why most of my college friends are older than me and why I prefer to talk to adults. Its also why I prefer animals to people. I'd really like to get over this is there a way to do that that i dont know about?