trust me, being different is NOT a good thing. In a culture that worships sameness and functional docility (like George Carlin said; they want people who are just smart enough to run the machines and do the paperwork and just dumb enough to accept these increasingly shittier jobs with lower pay, longer hours, reduced benefits, end of overtime and the vanishing pension" and "people who work just hard enough not to get fired and are paid just enough not to quit") someone like me is just a glitch. A freak anomaly which was created from my parents being much older than the optimal age to have children and probably let my older brother drop me on my head since they let him do whatever the fuck he wanted to as a child anyways. It seems like the only ones that are truly happy in this world are the ones who love hoop-jumping and being human Pavlov's Dogs... or they enjoy being middle-management house-slave whip-crackers or mercilessly shitting on everyone below them too cowardly to face the company you run and rely on said whip-crackers to do all the talking. Now, I'm not saying global communism and/or socialism is the answer, as I don't know what the fuck the answer is... alls I know is, I'm like a broken fucking machine that is too strange, too offbeat, too weak, too stupid, too ugly to even live, marred by bad genes and raised in a NIMBY background by my hyper-feminist mother who believes only WOMEN truly matter and men are over-privileged pieces of shit unless they work like goddamn horses and are deeply in debt. I don't know what the point of all this shit I wrote is... just still waiting for the day I have the courage to end it (and I'm SICK TO FUCKING DEATH of people saying "oh, it's the easy way out!" which is a crock of shit... it takes a LOT of guts to stare that bitch Mother Nature in the face, flip her the bird and disown yourself.) so that all this shit (and all these shitty posts) can stop. Anyways, go ahead and delete this post and delete me if it makes the site feel better... I'm not well-liked here anyways because I'm way too real. Not like I can change this piece of god-shit planet that I was involuntarily thrown into by a couple overly-idealistic parents who cared more about "having at least 2 kids" (even despite the fact they BOTH suffered with sibling issues) so they "fit in" instead of actually THINKING about the kind of NIMBY hyper-competitive, unfree, passive-aggressive full-of-shit smoke-and-mirrors hypocritical hellhole they're bringing the child into as well as an emotional abusive sibling that would fuck up his self-esteem for the rest of his life. -Just another rant from someone who supposedly has a "bad attitude" and since I don't blame anyone but myself (ultimately) it's all my fault for not being docile and strong and thick-skinned and depression-free enough to be one of the workhorses of the Illuminati.