I talked to a gp today. Not my own one.. they don't seem to let us have access to the ones we actually know anymore (at my gp surgery anyway). She was very nice and gave me a long telephone appointment, which I really appreciated. However, we got around to discussing mental health support, and I said I'd had an initial phone call from the resource centre in June, to say I was "known" to them now, so I could call if things got really bad. I can't say I really trust them so I never used that bit. However I had said that what I really need is help for my complex ptsd. I was told that there is a service for that (which nobody has ever mentioned in my 20 years of on and off trying to access my local nhs mental health services. The person I spoke with on the phone said they'd be having a team meeting the following week to review all the cases so they'd put that to the team then.
I haven't heard anything since, so the gp looked on the system today and apparently they sent a letter to them to say that in their opinion any intervention on mental health's part would not only not help but may make me worse, therefore they're not going to offer me any help at all!!
At that point I burst into tears and told the gp that I honestly wasn't surprised as it's not the first time they've washed their hands of me.
But to do it without even having the courtesy to phone me or send me out a letter, leaving me waiting for months to know if I'm on any waiting list is unnecessarily cruel. I know they don't like me there because cbt doesn't work for me (due to not having any "inner" voice to affect my actions, which is kind of a big part of cbt), and when it repeatedly didn't work, I was labelled uncooperative.
They are so damn petty and vindictive in this city. All the resource centres I've been to over the years have been exactly with the same, with the same *swear word* staff that only let the "right" kind of people get support.
They never even bothered to have a single phone appointment other than that initial "you are known to us" call. I haven't talked to any of them in 2 years, yet they don't want to know.
This is nhs mental health. Isn't it supposed to be for everyone?? To say I'm upset is an understatement. I've always felt like there's nowhere to turn for a long time now, but to have definitive proof that actually there definitely is nowhere.. I mean really.. what can you say when things are beyond bad, and the people you're meant to be able to turn to have shut the door without even bothering to let you know?
I've spent so long trying to find alternative help because I know how god awful they are, but I always told myself if everything else fails, at least that's a last chance safety net. But there's not. There's nothing. There's just nothing.
I haven't heard anything since, so the gp looked on the system today and apparently they sent a letter to them to say that in their opinion any intervention on mental health's part would not only not help but may make me worse, therefore they're not going to offer me any help at all!!
At that point I burst into tears and told the gp that I honestly wasn't surprised as it's not the first time they've washed their hands of me.
But to do it without even having the courtesy to phone me or send me out a letter, leaving me waiting for months to know if I'm on any waiting list is unnecessarily cruel. I know they don't like me there because cbt doesn't work for me (due to not having any "inner" voice to affect my actions, which is kind of a big part of cbt), and when it repeatedly didn't work, I was labelled uncooperative.
They are so damn petty and vindictive in this city. All the resource centres I've been to over the years have been exactly with the same, with the same *swear word* staff that only let the "right" kind of people get support.
They never even bothered to have a single phone appointment other than that initial "you are known to us" call. I haven't talked to any of them in 2 years, yet they don't want to know.
This is nhs mental health. Isn't it supposed to be for everyone?? To say I'm upset is an understatement. I've always felt like there's nowhere to turn for a long time now, but to have definitive proof that actually there definitely is nowhere.. I mean really.. what can you say when things are beyond bad, and the people you're meant to be able to turn to have shut the door without even bothering to let you know?
I've spent so long trying to find alternative help because I know how god awful they are, but I always told myself if everything else fails, at least that's a last chance safety net. But there's not. There's nothing. There's just nothing.