I think so.
It's not so much a rush for me but that people are noticing maybe.
I don't know.
I've lost 10 pounds in the last week but have a history with anorexia/bulimia that has been stable for about 4 years. I'm just crashing and I don't care so I'm losing the weight.
It's control for me and I know it. Yes, I felt fat so that's there too but mostly
So i'm not sure it's the same for me as you.
Maybe you could explain more about how you feel about it?
Yeah I know what you guys mean. It's mostly that I am afraid that I get joy from being told that, even if I look bad, and that it's self-destructive to show my inward sickness by taking it out on my body.