I've had severe depression for 5 years now and I'm 16 so thats kinda screwed up my teenage years, you know? The doctor wont give me meds cos it's a "last resort" thing though I've attempted suicide 3 times and I cut almost every night.
The worst thing I think is the lack of support, you know? My parents don't believe in depression, they think I'm just being self-centred and am having a bad day, and my friends avoid me now like they're scared I'll go psycho on them or something.
I hate this.
The other day my father saw the cuts and demanded to know what they were, and I just shoved my arm up so he could see all my scars and scabs properly and yelled right in his face "you believe in depression now?"
He won't talk to me. My Mum won't either. They act like nothing's wrong. My older brother has no idea. My friends hate me. The only people I know who are on my side in all of this shit are asking me to join their suicide pact. I'm so tempted as well.
I can't do this anymore. Does anyone else here feel like nobody cares and nobody wants to listen?
The worst thing I think is the lack of support, you know? My parents don't believe in depression, they think I'm just being self-centred and am having a bad day, and my friends avoid me now like they're scared I'll go psycho on them or something.
I hate this.
The other day my father saw the cuts and demanded to know what they were, and I just shoved my arm up so he could see all my scars and scabs properly and yelled right in his face "you believe in depression now?"
He won't talk to me. My Mum won't either. They act like nothing's wrong. My older brother has no idea. My friends hate me. The only people I know who are on my side in all of this shit are asking me to join their suicide pact. I'm so tempted as well.
I can't do this anymore. Does anyone else here feel like nobody cares and nobody wants to listen?