I've been taking sleeping pills for 4 months now (after a break up with my gf of 2 years) and it's getting out of control. Ambien doesn't work for me (unless i take 6-8 pills, which give me 4 hours of sleep with terrible nightmares and heart palpations on the next day), so i switched to benzos. I've started with 1 pill, now im on 3-4 (5mg nitrazepam). I am mixing sleeping pills and sedatives (bromazepam). I've tried antidepressants (Trittico), prescribed by my doctor, but it gave me severe side effects (heart problems), so i've stop taking them. I'm visiting her on Friday, but i'm not sure if i should try other antidepressants (my main fear is ED as a side effect). What i'm afraid of is that i'm addicted to benzodiazepines. It's a problem that my mother has, only with sedatives, not sleeping pills. How hard is it to go cold turkey after 4 months of daily use (abuse) of benzos? The problem is, that both my doctor and my psychiatryst don't want to prescribe them to me anymore and I litteraly have to beg for them, i'm so afraid to be without them because i cant sleep for a minute and I'm already depressed enough without not being able to sleep. If i don't sleep, my depression gets much more severe... Especially now when exams are coming, i really can't afford not to sleep, i need good grades because college is the only thing that motivates me to keep going and deal with my suicidal thoughts. I'm also planning on leaving my home town next year and continue studying in other city, perhaps this will help with my depression... Ps: Sorry for my english. Although i read english daily, it's been a long time since i wrote something in english, i hope it doesn't suck completely and my post makes any sense. Ps2: When withdrawing from benzos, which natural medicine can improve situation at least a little?