So it seems Ativan is one drug I take that actually takes away my suicidal feelings and thoughts. However I know after a long time the drug becomes ineffective. I've only been on a low dosage for like a month. If the drug stops my suicidal thoughts should I continue to take it? It seems like a silly question, but I know benzo addiction can make things worse for people after a long time. I can easily obtain as much of the drug as I'd like too, but I'm generally really careful about addiction and taking it. What do you think?