So the girl i am hopelessly in love with is cheating on me.....i am pretty sure anyway. she constantly accuses me of cheating talks to me for like three weeks then stopps and says she is smoking pot and constantly thinks it pisses me off thats why she doesnt talk to me when she is high. It doesnt piss me off i love talking to her no matter what state of mind she is in and i have told her this many times. also she is living with another guy, i know it is possible for two ppl of opposite sex to live together and not have sex(being married:biggrinbut still it hurts. on top of all that her myspace is still covered with her ex who is a complete douchebag and has nno mention of me what so ever. her family doesnt even know i exist since her mom and sister both think her ex is still her current. well maybe it is that i am thinking to far into this and all that jazz but long distance relationships are really gay, its been waaaaayyyy tooo long since we have seen eachother since i have a suspended license and no job and she is four hundred fucking miles away. dont know if this is the right place for this post but here it is anyway Oh, the whole reason why this situation is causing me soo much pain. i am pretty sure she is cheating on me or maybe i was the person she used to cheat on the other guy with, dunno, but even if my worst fears were correct i would still want to be with her and do blame myself for any of her actions if she did cheat or fool aroud and what not cuz ultimately it is my fault i was not there for here even though as full of myself as this makes me sound i am the best boyfriend she has or will ever have there dont get much better than me i dont think. never been told anything else oh and i dont mean sexually, this is neither the time or place to discuss such things as that. once again i dont mean to sound so full of myself or conceeded or what have you but she has said it and so have a few other X's, though if i were so good why are they Xs and not currently still with me? i dunno all i know is im hopelessly in love with this girl and if that is wrong i dont wanna be right. even if that means living with the knowledge that i lead her to cheat by not being there for her.