I really don't want to live any longer. I'm a 15 year old British male in a relatively sound physical state, and, historically, a relatively sober mental state.
I feel lonely and depressed pretty much all of the time; I don't have any friends whatsoever - people have said, and say that they're my friends, but I'm pretty sure they're just trying to make fun of me. I feel really lonely all of the time. Nobody ever wants to talk to me, and all of the individuals whom I try to speak to get bored and irrate, very quickly. I just desperately wish I had some friends - I don't get what's wrong with me - I always try to be nice, respectful and patient towards others, but nobody seems to care. I always try to make new friends on facebook, but nobody wants to be bothered. I also suffer with Asperger's syndrome.
I also get bullied a lot: people make fun of the way I dress, talk, walk, sit - they push me, hit me, slap me, throw books at me and call me names - without any reason whatsoever. I often break down into tears, right in front of them, yet they still have no mercy - they just carry on.
I've been suffering with a kind of delirium - a cognitive disturbance manifesting as a result of stress/depression/physical changes, for about four months now, and it's extremely depressing to have no clarity of thought - no cognitive lucidity, especially given that I had previously possessed a genius level IQ (I scored 146 on a test in my early childhood).
I've requested help from the NHS' mental health services, but my appointment isn't until October 8th - I've been planning my suicide for the 27th of this month, and so such a delayed fixture won't suffice. I don't really care. I'm just fed up of this shit - I don't need any help, and don't really know why I'm posting this. Maybe I'm just doing it for sympathy.
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I feel lonely and depressed pretty much all of the time; I don't have any friends whatsoever - people have said, and say that they're my friends, but I'm pretty sure they're just trying to make fun of me. I feel really lonely all of the time. Nobody ever wants to talk to me, and all of the individuals whom I try to speak to get bored and irrate, very quickly. I just desperately wish I had some friends - I don't get what's wrong with me - I always try to be nice, respectful and patient towards others, but nobody seems to care. I always try to make new friends on facebook, but nobody wants to be bothered. I also suffer with Asperger's syndrome.
I also get bullied a lot: people make fun of the way I dress, talk, walk, sit - they push me, hit me, slap me, throw books at me and call me names - without any reason whatsoever. I often break down into tears, right in front of them, yet they still have no mercy - they just carry on.
I've been suffering with a kind of delirium - a cognitive disturbance manifesting as a result of stress/depression/physical changes, for about four months now, and it's extremely depressing to have no clarity of thought - no cognitive lucidity, especially given that I had previously possessed a genius level IQ (I scored 146 on a test in my early childhood).
I've requested help from the NHS' mental health services, but my appointment isn't until October 8th - I've been planning my suicide for the 27th of this month, and so such a delayed fixture won't suffice. I don't really care. I'm just fed up of this shit - I don't need any help, and don't really know why I'm posting this. Maybe I'm just doing it for sympathy.
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