Today , my wife and I decided to take our children out for the day , to give the kids some normality , to give them a break from what is a very unpleasent situation for them . We went to the National aquarium in Plymouth , it was wonderful , they really enjoyed themselves , it was so good to be all together and to see them running and laughing , we had lunch in a very nice restaurant , we walked on the beach and looked in rockpools , we were all together , we were our family . On the drive home , every mile bought me closer to the reality of my life , tonight at 6 my wife will walk out of our front door and go to her new partner . Nothing has changed , the charade of normality was , just that , a charade . The pain is worse than ever , today was like a slap in the face , it was like being grabbed by the scruff of the neck and told ......... LOOK , TAKE A GOOD LONG FUCKING LOOK AT WHAT YOU HAVE LOST AND DON'T YOU EVER FORGET IT YOU USELESS SACK OF SHIT . I am so glad the children had a fantastic day with mum and dad .