Better off dead

Discussion in 'Suicidal Thoughts and Feelings' started by among the stars, Oct 31, 2009.

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  1. among the stars

    among the stars Well-Known Member

    Better off dead *possible Trigger*

    life is getting unbearable, i wish my grandparents would die i hate them so fricking much...im destroying myself from the outside in hoping ill just die, i cant deal with teh pain im sick of it. i dont care if this gets deleted, im starting not to care about anything
    i feel liek this song:

    ~Better off dead by Anathema~
    I'm sorry about the sun,
    how could I know that you would burn?,
    and I'm sorry about the moon,
    how could I know that you'd disapproved,
    I'll never make the same mistake,
    so next time I create the universe
    I'll make sure we communicate at length
    oh yeah,
    but until then...it's better off dead,
    a smile on the lips and a hole in the head,
    better off dead, it's better than this,
    take it away cuz there's nothing to miss
    I'm sorry about the world,
    how could I know you'd take it so bad?,
    and I'll never make the same mistake,
    so if you are looking for a fantasy
    why not trying the entire human race
    just to play it safe
    until then...
    a smile on the lips and a hole in the head,
    better off dead, it's better than this,
    take it away cuz there's nothing to miss
    Better off dead, better off dead,
    why don't you try pushing daisies instead
    Better off dead, better off dead,
    a smile on the lips and a hole in the head,
    and I'll never make the same mistake,
    the next time I create the universe
    I'll make sure you participate
    oh yeah
    and I'll never make the same mistake,
    the next time I create the universe
    I'll make sure we communicate at length, just in case.
     
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  2. Tobes

    Tobes Well-Known Member

    Re: Better off dead *possible Trigger*

    there there
     
  3. Petal

    Petal SF dreamer Staff Alumni SF Supporter

    Re: Better off dead *possible Trigger*

    Hey, you wouldn't be better off dead. Why do you hate your grandparents? I hope you're feeling a bit better today.
     
  4. ODIECOM

    ODIECOM Well-Known Member

    that is kinda intresting, why DO you hate your grandparents ?
     
  5. among the stars

    among the stars Well-Known Member

    i hate them cuz ever since mom died they have treated me as if i cant be trusted i dont kno why...its like being locked in a max security prison only 100x worse....have no life cuz of them....grandma gets verbal with me too sometimes makes me wish i could off myself in front of her so that she would fricking shut the hell up! Shed be sorry then o ya shed be damn sorry
     
  6. ODIECOM

    ODIECOM Well-Known Member

    do you live with them ?
     
  7. Scully

    Scully Well-Known Member

    I can relate. I lived with my grand-parents after my mother died. It was very different then, a stricter education. To lose a bit of you on the way. Distrust, not telling truths. Hiding things. At 20 I couldn't sleep with my BF (sleep in the same bed), he slept on a mattress in the LR. If I can ask, what about your father? It's hard to cope, but there's still you. You're worth it, your life.
     
  8. among the stars

    among the stars Well-Known Member

    I hide 99% of my feelings and mask everything i say or do. everything always has to be fine and if its not i get yelled at...everything i do is wrong...but i guess wat it really is is g-ma giving me grief and enjoyin it. im 21 and have no life...no BF, no firends, no social life or degree....and only a PT job that gets me no where.
    I have lived with my grandparents since i was 3 days old...we (my mom, older sis and i) came here after my dad passed away. He had a heart attack just after holding me.
     
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