There is no why to her being horrible because she isn't. She is a very caring loving helpful person, she just feels bad about herself like we feel about ours.
Michaella, you are a good person, and something would be missing and feel strange if you weren't hee or never born. You are a good person, the horrible thing is your illness that's the bad, evil thing is the sickness that effects all of us, don't let it win, you are going through a slump but it'll get better, I do that too, I am going through one right about now.....altho, I feel aeful and want to be in peace dying won't give it to me, never giving up and staying in recovery will.
You know I am here for you and I will message you on MSN, If you're not on I will just call you and annoy you..........NEVER GIVE UP HUN, KEEP YOUR CHIN UP TOO.....:hug: