Between freedom and insanity

Discussion in 'After Effects' started by Joe85, Aug 19, 2013.

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  1. Joe85

    Joe85 Member

    so i just survived my second suicide attempts a week ago

    i am not sure if i should call it a suicide attempt

    part of me is just telling me i am a big coward, and i am just pretending that i have all the courage it takes

    the other part is just trying to justify me being alive as always, and i shall be free nothing like before

    ive been seeing a clear picture of what insanity looks like, and for a long time ive been tasting fear again

    It is just a week and i have experienced numerous amounts of thoughts and emotions

    What I can tell so far is the dosage of feelings have increased; more calmness , and more anxiety on the other

    Sometimes I have to remember that moment when I almost taste death and it is just awful!!!! Maybe because my method was just too stupid, I dont know what the hell I was thinking

    So, I really don’t know what to expect out of it????????

    Please share your thoughts dear fellows
  2. total eclipse

    total eclipse SF Friend Staff Alumni

    I too have been walking that line of insanity and clarity as you speak My thoughts are to reach out talk to someone like you are doing here but in real life too
    Talking to someone that is not on that line will help you get on a path of healing not destruction
    Talk to your doctor someone you trust ok and get some help for you
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