I'm getting to the point very quickly where I'm entertaining the thought of getting off this planet. things are way beyond fixing at this point and today absolutely crushed the last bit of hope I had. i'm a disabled single mother with multiple health problems, who's living with family and my teenage daughter (in itself that is a trauma- read my previous post in the Uncertainty Principle regarding my daughter's treatment of me) Today after 12 weeks of literal hell, trying to get the medication I need approved for my type II diabetes, I was denied by my state medical insurance program. they absolutely refuse to cover it because there are "alternative" medications I can try instead (so they say). For the past 12 weeks I've been receiving samples that last 2 weeks from my physician. This is only a temporary solution while we argue it out with the insurance company in an attempt to appeal their initial decision to refuse me. Well that appeal went down the toilet as of today. Got a letter of denial and was told I can request a hearing but that their decision is their decision and I need to find a different medication they WILL approve. A hearing could take additional weeks or MONTHS, which I cant afford time wise. I've been taken off and put back on this medication twice now when I ran out of samples. Each time I have run out, my body goes through hell adjusting to the lack of it, only to get teased with another sample and dropped off yet again. the vicious cycle repeats and repeats. three months of this insanity. The medication I've been fighting to get has helped me lose almost 20 pounds since going on it, the whole reason we're using this medication is because im so severely over weight right now, that gaining any will be detrimental to my health, and could have life threatening complications cardiac wise. Not to mention I suffer from fibromyalgia, degenerative spinal disease, 4 partially herniated lumbar discs and osteo-arthritis. I can barely walk at all, and am forced to use electric carts when I do go out. My doctor refused to put me on insulin because id gain weight on it and he's trying to help me lose it not add to the weight problem. If I gain more weight ill be unable to function. My blood sugars are normal on it, and the swelling in my feet (Edema) goes away, along with my other diabetic symptoms. Go off it, and the weight starts to come back, I swell horribly again, and my sugars go bad again. Now the insurance company offered me two medications as a substitute. BOTH medications are insulin based which is what my doctor said NO NO and NO to for health and safety reasons. BOTH medications will make me gain weight, BOTH medications will likely cause Edema or make it more severe. My feet are already twice the normal size from the swelling I have chronically, and leak fluid all the time. Dangerous in itself for a diabetic to have sores on their feet. My close friend died in 07' from complications with diabetes after a mosquito bite infected and caused her to lose her legs. BOTH medications also are known to cause hypokalemia (potassium loss) in those who are prone to it. I've been hospitalized countless times for hypokalemia and it can be deadly if your potassium drops too low, cardiac arrest can happen. BOTH medications can also cause blood clotting factor issues. in 09' I was treated for multiple blood clots due to a clotting factor problem. ALL these issues I already have and they want to put me on medication that INCREASES those issues, some of which could kill me if allowed to persist. The drug company offers an rx assistance program but I don't qualify for that EITHER, because im on state medical, even though the stupid medical insurance company wont cover my medication. Doc cant give me samples forever, he has to provide those for others as well, not just cater to me. Really feel like if a solution doesn't come up ASAP ill have no choice but to think about putting an end to this endless torment and suffering. it NEVER gets better. EVER. and when it does, someone or something rips away the progress.