bi polar or just coocoo?

Discussion in 'Mental Health Disorders' started by grinded serenity, Sep 9, 2009.

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  1. grinded serenity

    grinded serenity Well-Known Member

    Hey all,
    I dont post in this specific sub forum, because, well, i dont know. i know im depressed. i just dont post here.

    my problem, or more so question, is that i can go for 3 or 4 days feeling just ok, and then ill just drop into a worse depression than before i felt okay. it just keeps happening over and over, and each time after i "Crash" i feel like killing myself, or hurting myself enough to not wake up. i dont know what to do now, i just wait through the ok periods for when i wake up, and want to die. the depression period lasts for anywhere from a day or two to 3 weeks...

    am i just bi polar? or is tere something more going on?

    i self harm, btw.
  2. Aurora Gory Alice

    Aurora Gory Alice Well-Known Member

    Hi Grinded Serenity,
    It's difficult to say, do you ever feel manic or hypomanic (bounds of energy, full of joy, happiness, feeling great, on top of the world like you could do anything?) with bi polar often that is the other side of it. Although it may not appear as often as with the depression.
    It could be Dsythymia or any number of things.

    Are you on meds at all? Have you spoken to your Doctor?
    I think that's the best and first step to finding out what is going on in your head and from there he or she can help you get to the bottom of things, maybe with a psychiatric consult.
    I hope things get figured out for you.
  3. grinded serenity

    grinded serenity Well-Known Member

    Thanks Linds,

    I've been to a doctor before, just last week, as a matter of fact. He recommended therapy, and didnt want to prescribe any medication (againts my fathers wishes...) because of my young age(17).

    no, i dont get get any of those, its always at BEST being ok. theres no beyond that, i havent smiled truly in months. i will sometimes get the intiative to do alot of things at once, like im on ritalin or meth or something, but thats extremely rare.

    is it wrogn that i want to feel like this? i feel like this should be how i feel, like i deserve to feel like this because of the things ive let happen, and the things ive done. i dont want treatment, because i dont want my liver to rot away from prozak, and i dont want therapy because i dont want some guy or girl going through my head and judging me every second im with them. i cant stand judgement.

    Thanks again,

  4. total eclipse

    total eclipse SF Friend Staff Alumni

    Hey therapist never judge you the talk with you and help you understand why your emotions are all over the place. My therapist is the greatest as others will say they really just want to help you understand yourself. Medication helps but you need to see a specialist to diagnose you if you are bipolar or not then get on right meds for it. Your life will be so much better if you do. Your 17 you can ask family doctor to refer you to psychiatrist and get help Please know we all understand and no your not coco the chemicals in your brain just need to be leveled out so you can feel better. Talk with your doctor and see what he says. Im glad you came here for support and please talk to even a councillor at school a teacher when you are feeling depressed. Exercise helps depression but you really need a professional to diagnose you properly so you can start treatment earlier then suffering without need. take care
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