Nobody takes me seriously bout my inability 2 leave my house most days, even 2 put the rubbish out. Nor my panic attacks, insomnia, anxiety, or how hard it is just to get outta bed and face each day. Or the fact that i want 2 DIE! I'm only still here Becos other people want me 2 be, not Becos i want 2 be! So, what about what i want? Do i not get a say in my own life? Apparently not Life is crap. Life is shit, life is useless, life is a waste of time! I've known this from being very young, probably around 11-12 yrs of age. Life is what you make it so they say. Oh well. There ya go. I'm crap, i've made my life crap, i'm responsible, i'm 2 blame, as usual. So what! Who cares? Certainly not me, thats for sure! What's the answer? I'm just a big FAT LOSER! And, i want 2 SCREEEEAAAAMMMMMM!!!!