This is going to sound stupid to alot of people, I guess... But I feel really really down right now. -__- Since it's Earth day, my brother has been on a psychotic rampage-- being the biggest 'preservation nazi' ever... and it's really irritating since he doesn't seem to care on any regular day whether every light in the house is on- and T.V's- the heat on full blast... Mom and I were preparing dinner and had the kitchen light on. He wanted to turn the radio on for whatever reason- even though he wasn't even IN the fucking kitchen. I told him NO- turn it off- it's annoying--- and he freaked out, yelling at me for having the kitchen light on even though the sun is still up. I told him to get the fuck out 0f the kitchen, and he screamed at me then stormed out of the house. -___- For one thing, I don't fight with people. I hardly ever disagree to the point that I feel I have to argue with someone, or even raise my voice. Today I yelled. I got screamed at- and now I'm in a bad place and feel horrible for ever waking up today. I just want to go back to sleep and never wake up. I really dislike this house. I can't stand living with my family... I have always been standing on my own two feet- and now I'm a failure who had to come running home; and it's making me really sad. I hate it here... but I've got nowhere else to go. I wish I had my passport-- so that I could move into the mountains of tibet; become a monk; and never speak to anyone again.