Hello, I came here through a google search. To be blunt, I'm the biggest freak who has ever lived in the history of the earth. Literally. I'm like the elephant man but a million times worse. But my problem is that I don't look like a freak, so no one knows that I am. I just have a horrible secret that I need to keep hidden from everyone around me (by the way, it's nothing even remotely illegal or criminal in case you're wondering--I have never even had a parking or speeding ticket). So anyway, because people see me as being completely normal, they say things to my face that are utterly heart-wrenching. They tell me the job I have isn't good enough (I make good money but most of my friends make extremely high salaries). Or they ask me why I'm not married. One of the worst things is that my dad is very sick, maybe dying and I don't want to visit because my relatives will hound me about why I'm not married. So I have extreme guilt on top of everything else. But I can't tell them the truth about why I have a sucky job or why I'm always alone. I wish I was the elephant man so people could see right away that there's something wrong with me and leave me alone. I really feel like I'm beyond any help. I know some kind folks might try to convince me that I'm not the biggest freak ever, but seriously, it's true. But it's really the heartless comments people make to me that leave me in anguish. Maybe I should go live in a hippie commune or move to Nepal or something. Well, thanks for listening.