I am twenty five, and sense the start of high school I have had binge eating disorder. I developed such low self esteem, and emptyness that I turned to food. I eat and eat all day. I go to the grocey store every morning and spend twenty or thirty dollars, and eat it all that day. I eat to the point of getting sick and then I continue eating. I am ashamed of this. I don't eat in front of anyone. I am out of control. I have hypertension, borderline diabetes, sleep apnea, and chronic back pain. I can see it killing me, yet i can't stop. How do I get help? What can I do?