Discussion in 'Self Care and Healthy Lifestyles' started by Allo.., Feb 28, 2007.

  1. Allo..

    Allo.. Well-Known Member

    I. Love. Eating.
    I. Hate. Food.

    I. Hate. Eating.
    I. Love. Food.


    My body is just so fucked up! I can't make myself vomit no matter what i do! <mod edit: bunny - methods> and still nothing! ARGH ITS SO UNFAIR!

    sometimes, most of the time, i wish i had a different body. why cant i look like someone else. someone like those pretty girls that i see in my face every single day at school, at home, in town, wherever i go. i hate this shit.

    I didnt eat for two days. then yesterday morning i got up and wasnt going to and saw a musli bar sitting on the bench open next to my lunch.. I couldnt help myself, ate the bar and then started eating the grapes so fast i couldnt believe it.. then i ate one of these choc straw things and then two more.. then i ate one and half pieces of cake and couldnt even look at food.. i went over the the laundry and tried my hardest to throw it up but no! NOTHING!

    so i went to school feeling sicker than i have for a very long time and my mum was telling me to stay home because of how i felt.. i said no i hae maths today.. i cant miss it.. i hurt so much.. got to school and almost ran to the bathroom.. its just not fair. i made it through the day.. but i wish i could throw up.. it would make everything so much easier.
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  2. Sadeyes

    Sadeyes Staff Alumni

    Hi Ally...I used to binge was a sense of control, that I could eat whatever I saw and get rid of I wanted to get rid of so many other things in my life...when I get the urge to eat a lot, I drink a cold glass of the time I am full from the water, the urge has passed, and I did something good for myself...just a suggestion...big hugs