all ways been a depressive for years, so far that i can't remember a time i wasn't, and i all ways had what i thought were just good days and bad days.
but a few months ago our company hired a new manager and today she took me to one side and asked if i was bipolar as she has noticed my mood swings are quite extreme, in her words when i am up then i am on the ball, working hard and quick, i tend to talk quicker and come up with all sorts of ideas and plans but then i crash and i'm down for a few days, getting frustrated and showing it quite badly, so much so that i can keep someone away with just a look.
so anyway, looking back i found she was right and with my down time my thoughts of suicide were stronger and more profound and after some research i have to agree that although i am my forties i may be bipolar rather than just depressed.
so i have got an appt to see my GP monday morning and see what happens.
but a few months ago our company hired a new manager and today she took me to one side and asked if i was bipolar as she has noticed my mood swings are quite extreme, in her words when i am up then i am on the ball, working hard and quick, i tend to talk quicker and come up with all sorts of ideas and plans but then i crash and i'm down for a few days, getting frustrated and showing it quite badly, so much so that i can keep someone away with just a look.
so anyway, looking back i found she was right and with my down time my thoughts of suicide were stronger and more profound and after some research i have to agree that although i am my forties i may be bipolar rather than just depressed.
so i have got an appt to see my GP monday morning and see what happens.