I don't think I'd hurt anyone in real life just today at school I failed a request for friends and they said "your f***** gay" and I got hecka mad as if I were going to fight them so my friends don't care,my parents might but I don't really care about parents I just care about friends which really matter to me which I don't have anymore,I'm very very very lonely at school and karma I don't believe in it I've done so many good things for people yet I never get repaid or even a thankyou just get taken advantage of other people so I'm fed up.All that happens in my life every single day is eat,play videogames,do homework,watch tv,jackoff,and just cry when I'm alone so its not worth going on really.
Then, make new friends. You'll have to change your personality. Also, i was used to be called "FU*** GAY" "DIPSH***", etc. Everyday. I just got used to it, then people stopped calling me words. I know that it isn't true anyways. Change how you react to everything. Do not look weak if someone humilliates you, and ignore these people.
don't risk it though, even though you don't believe in it i assure you it's actually true. it operates on a larger scale of time than you can perceive. all the good things you did for people WILL necessarily come back to you as pleasurable experiences in the future, that's guaranteed.
the harsh truth is that you need to stop expecting thing's from life & endure all your suffering.
Hehe. I'm naturally shy also, but i deal with it pretty well.
By the way, hm, how bad is your social phobia? If you are actually afraid of socializing with others, you should tell your parents that, and they'll might help you.
The concept of nonviolence (ahimsa) and nonresistance has a long history in Indian religious thought and has had many revivals in Hindu, Buddhist, Jain, Jewish and Christian contexts. Gandhi explains his philosophy and way of life in his autobiography The Story of My Experiments with Truth. He was quoted as saying:
"When I despair, I remember that all through history the way of truth and love has always won. There have been tyrants and murderers and for a time they seem invincible, but in the end, they always fall — think of it, always."
"What difference does it make to the dead, the orphans, and the homeless, whether the mad destruction is wrought under the name of totalitarianism or the holy name of liberty and democracy?"
"An eye for an eye makes the whole world blind."
"There are many causes that I am prepared to die for but no causes that I am prepared to kill for."
In applying these principles, Gandhi did not balk from taking them to their most logical extremes. In 1940, when invasion of the British Isles by Nazi Germany looked imminent, Gandhi offered the following advice to the British people (Non-Violence in Peace and War):
"I would like you to lay down the arms you have as being useless for saving you or humanity. You will invite Herr Hitler and Signor Mussolini to take what they want of the countries you call your possessions.... If these gentlemen choose to occupy your homes, you will vacate them. If they do not give you free passage out, you will allow yourselves, man, woman, and child, to be slaughtered, but you will refuse to owe allegiance to them." .
However, Gandhi was aware that this level of nonviolence required incredible faith and courage, which he realized not everyone possessed. He therefore advised that everyone need not keep to nonviolence, especially if it was used as a cover for cowardice:
"Gandhi guarded against attracting to his satyagraha movement those who feared to take up arms or felt themselves incapable of resistance. 'I do believe,' he wrote, 'that where there is only a choice between cowardice and violence, I would advise violence.'"
"At every meeting I repeated the warning that unless they felt that in non-violence they had come into possession of a force infinitely superior to the one they had and in the use of which they were adept, they should have nothing to do with non-violence and resume the arms they possessed before. It must never be said of the Khudai Khidmatgars that once so brave, they had become or been made cowards under Badshah Khan's influence. Their bravery consisted not in being good marksmen but in defying death and being ever ready to bare their breasts to the bullets."