my birthday was like a week ago and my mother sent me a text "happy birthday what cake do you want?"??? i totally froze because she never cared about those things and i know she was super pissed that morning so i didnt understand why would she do that. later when the cake came she was all happy fooling around joking and i was shaking so much omg when she touched me by accident i almost hit her and idk why i was so scared, i mean maybe because she's so unpredictable and i dont know if she won't yell at me if i don't cut the cake the way she wants but i literally cried a little from stress or smth so that's kinda ridiculous but 5 mins later she started yelling and fighting with everyone in the house so i wasn't completely wrong
