not really sure where to begin. I really don't want to begin, but I have this feeling i need to do something. First time in many years I've been depressed...just a bit of a snowball effect i think, just can't seem to get a grip. Truly thought i was immune to depression...eh more melancholy dipping into momentary profound depression. For those who have ptsd issues that are fairly well controlled/good coping skills in place; will sudden depression aggravate symptoms that have been very well controlled for years...kind of kick one's ability to cope? And must the scene continuously replay itself? I've been fine for many years. Nothing I couldn't handle or cope with. Frankly, I think it's draining me, which is not helping the depression component. Can't seem to get it out of my head for some reason...really don't understand it. also, a really difficult question to ask...i really don't want to ask and likely shouldn't...has anyone here experienced kidnapping with intent to kill? Gawd I'm going to regret this.