Hi, I don't know what is wrong with me. I am not sure if I want to die. I have taken numerous overdoses but then ended up calling for help. I have also passed out numerous times through drinking and went to hospital. In the past year I have been in hospital over 14 times. I am on medication for depression but not sure if it works. I was told by some social worker that is probably a personality disorder but then nothing was followed up. I am not sure if it is attention seeking, why would I when I have a network of friends and family - but they dont know what is going on. Do I take the pills so that I can go to hospital? Do I enjoy being in hospital? Well you would think so judging by the amount of times I have been there in the past year or so. So I drink then take lots of pills. Maybe when I take them I wanna die but then regret the decision. I think there must be something going on that is not quite right in my head if that is the case. I think I must be crazy. Does anyone else have any input?