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Ok :dry: why do i still feel ok?? I keep taking more ibuprofen and more, but still feel the same. I dont wanna feel a thing, I just wanna feel vague and sleepy. How much did i take again, uhm, 14, thats 5600 mg. I will be fine, right? Maybe i need to take more, i wanna take more, how much can you have of this shit. 3 a day. guess i dont need them the next 3 days >< Hopefully i can sleep the next 3 days, owno fuck, i have this meeting for a job tomorrow, i dont wanna work again, i wanna sleep, but i need the money, blegh why did people invented such a stupid thing as money.
I dont wanna feel anymore, why cant i just be this robot, who does everything right, so I dont worrie my mom, she said to my sister she slept bad last nights and having nightmares about me. Why am I so retarded or why cant i hide my stuff better. I dont want to worry her, i lover my parents so much, that i'm still alive. I wish they knew i loved them so much, but i dont want them to know i feel so bad.
I dont wanna be this happy silly girl anymore, why does everyone thinks i am that, why does everyone says the want me like that, why does everyone says they miss me like that, why cant i just be myself. Because this is taking to much energy. I really collapsed a few days ago. I even cried again, I havent cried for months. Guess still have some feelings, good to see. Now i wanna just take some more pills and be this fucking robot.
Oh wait guess the alcohol is working now, now I'm feeling a bit sleepy and heavy. sorry or all this blablabla, but i just felt like writing some stuff. need to let it out, ghehe guess I posted it on the right place of the forum ><
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I dont wanna feel anymore, why cant i just be this robot, who does everything right, so I dont worrie my mom, she said to my sister she slept bad last nights and having nightmares about me. Why am I so retarded or why cant i hide my stuff better. I dont want to worry her, i lover my parents so much, that i'm still alive. I wish they knew i loved them so much, but i dont want them to know i feel so bad.
I dont wanna be this happy silly girl anymore, why does everyone thinks i am that, why does everyone says the want me like that, why does everyone says they miss me like that, why cant i just be myself. Because this is taking to much energy. I really collapsed a few days ago. I even cried again, I havent cried for months. Guess still have some feelings, good to see. Now i wanna just take some more pills and be this fucking robot.
Oh wait guess the alcohol is working now, now I'm feeling a bit sleepy and heavy. sorry or all this blablabla, but i just felt like writing some stuff. need to let it out, ghehe guess I posted it on the right place of the forum ><
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