Well yesterday I find out my sister had a baby girl born 7 weeks early. I was told 5 days later after the whole family have been to see her. I was then told my other sister was attacked as she was shopping and was taking to hospital gain I was told 3 weeks after it all happened. So last night when I was in the bath I started cutting again and it felt wonderful. When I woke up this morning it was the first thing I did and again it felt great like it was a release. After when I settle down I feel bad about it. It is something I don't want to do but my feeling get to a point where cutting is the only way to go. Right now I don't know what to do. I don't want to get into this again but it is the only way I stop the pain of being an outcast from my family.