I don't know what I've been doing lately. I don't know where I've been, or what I've done. I looked at my threads lately. The two in the Suicide forum. I don't even remember making them, and that scares me like hell. I have been taking some OTC drugs to help me sleep at night, but I don't know. I don't even remember if I overdosed on them because the dose I took wasn't enough? This past two weeks I barely remember anything. To make things worse, I remember listening to music (This is two days ago) and it swore, and my father got pissed that it swore. And my mother came in and bitched at me, so I argued with her and I got kicked out of the house. I had like, 12 bucks and I just walked out the door. I don't really remember anything but passing out at a park. I woke up with a twoonie, so I went to McDonalds and bought a drink (I dunno why, I guess there were no convenience stores) and then my cell phone kept buzzing. So at about 8:00 I walked home (I've been thinking clearly since then) and my parents let me back in and I slept. And here I am and that's my story. At least, I think it is. I have black spots when I try to think of things. I don't even remember making my last thread about my friends. Why am I even writing this? I dunno. I've been feeling in this constant state of shit and everything is just spiraling out of control. How am I going to survive this? And the school year? Shit.