Well, I'm only writing this cos I've been drinking so if it makes no sense I'm sorry. :unsure:
How is it possible that one little word can upset me so much?!?!? It was said in chat LAST NIGHT and I'm still upset by it now :sad: It was on TV earlier and in a post..and it just goes round and round in my head :sad:
I miss her so much. More than I should. I know it's not right. I can't stop dreaming about her, thinking about her. I sit watching * who lost someone more recently doing so well, getting over it and I wonder why I can't seem to?!?!
:cry: :cry: :cry: I want her back.
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I felt like I was gettting my lie back on track. Since I was in A and E for an overdose over two weeks ago I haven't even THOUGHT about self-harming once. Have felt okay. Got myself put back on anti-depressants. And finally starting making plans for the future.
Plans for the future.....Plans....most of which revolved around the money I was going to get from my Nan's house sale.
Rent somewhere for me and Vikki maybe. Go on holiday with her. Treat her. Buy some things that I have wanted for a while for myself.
Hahahahahahahahaha
Was too good to be true wasn't it!
I found out this morning that my Uncle's house sale fell through. Which means he can't buy my house. Which means I don't get my money for God knows how long. Which means I have to carry on like this for I don't know how long.
Not only that...but no one was even going to tell me!!!!!
Ever just feel like everything is Jinxed?!?!?!?
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Grrr, I'll shut up, I'm sorry. :blink:
How is it possible that one little word can upset me so much?!?!? It was said in chat LAST NIGHT and I'm still upset by it now :sad: It was on TV earlier and in a post..and it just goes round and round in my head :sad:
I miss her so much. More than I should. I know it's not right. I can't stop dreaming about her, thinking about her. I sit watching * who lost someone more recently doing so well, getting over it and I wonder why I can't seem to?!?!
:cry: :cry: :cry: I want her back.
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I felt like I was gettting my lie back on track. Since I was in A and E for an overdose over two weeks ago I haven't even THOUGHT about self-harming once. Have felt okay. Got myself put back on anti-depressants. And finally starting making plans for the future.
Plans for the future.....Plans....most of which revolved around the money I was going to get from my Nan's house sale.
Rent somewhere for me and Vikki maybe. Go on holiday with her. Treat her. Buy some things that I have wanted for a while for myself.
Hahahahahahahahaha
Was too good to be true wasn't it!
I found out this morning that my Uncle's house sale fell through. Which means he can't buy my house. Which means I don't get my money for God knows how long. Which means I have to carry on like this for I don't know how long.
Not only that...but no one was even going to tell me!!!!!
Ever just feel like everything is Jinxed?!?!?!?
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Grrr, I'll shut up, I'm sorry. :blink: