i dunno if this can help. things are tough. i know i have it a lot easier than others, so i feel guilty even having these feelings. my parents control every aspect of my life, i am yelled at for everything. i feel like i am being suffocated and smothered to death. i literally can't breathe properly right now. it's been like this for over 20 years , i have a few more til i am financially able to move out. i have no one whose house i can move to, no where to go. i can't get a job yet, i have school to finish. they know i am suicidal and don't care. i just want an easy painless way to do it. <Mod Edit, WildCherry: Methods>. i love life i do, i have friends i love them, but my parents are sucking my life dry. iwish i had a gun . anyone have foolproof methods?