Blahh.

Discussion in 'Rants, Musings and Ideas' started by Vacuity, Sep 9, 2008.

  1. Vacuity

    Vacuity Member

    I really can't cope anymore.
    It's been a while since I've felt this bad.
    You know?
    I really just want to scream.
    Yet, I have nothing to say.
    All these thoughts in my head.
    Unable to articulate them.
    Unable to say, or even identify how I feel.
    Piece of shit.
    I don't want to live.
    I hate being alive.
    Everything is so bloody... pointless.
    I guess this is it.
    The end of the road. :unsure:
     
  2. purplefizz

    purplefizz Senior Member

    I understand how you feel. I know that sounds impossible, but I feel the same desperation. A lot of others do, too. You don't need to do this. There is always something worth living for, even if it's something ridiculous like a TV show.

    I hope you pull yourself out of these messy feelings :hug:
     
  3. Petal

    Petal SF dreamer Staff Alumni SF Supporter

    Hello,

    I hope you are feeling better today. Everything is pointless only if you make it worth nothing. You have to make a point to it, and learn to like yourself. If you need to talk, feel free to pm me :hug:
     
  4. Datsik

    Datsik Forum Buddy

    Hey hun.

    You know how to reach me when you wanna talk.

    Take care. <3
     
  5. Vacuity

    Vacuity Member

    I'm not coping.
    This sucks.
    I feel terrible.
    I hate my mood swings.
    I feel good one minute, and really low the next.
    The good part never lasts.
    I mostly feel like shit.
    Gahh.
    I hate this.
    Is this what recovered means?
    How can I be recovering?
    Or is it just about the act?
    Because I can pretend i'm okay, that makes me recovered?
    I kind of thought recovery would be better than this.
    I should've known.
    I should've realised it'll never get better.
    It's just about fooling people.

    ^^ Thank you for your comments :rolleyes:
     
  6. flowerpot

    flowerpot Well-Known Member

    I agree with purplefizz
    You just have to find anything whatsoever that you'd miss if you were gone
    Any pets?
    Or friends?
    Or something that means alot to you
    Just think how they'd feel if you left them
    & how much you'd miss them
    Life is shit, really shit
    But you have to make it good
    Don't let the shittyness win